The Armed Citizen’s League Defense Network has an interview with Andy Brown, who dropped an active shooter in his tracks at 70 yards with a Beretta 92while he was a security patrolman with the Air Force at Fairchild Air Force Base.
“After the shooting, I was initially able to perform well at work and would occasionally socialize with friends off duty, but as the anxiety increased I began to avoid people and public places. I tried to avoid thinking about the incident and tried to ignore the symptoms, hoping they would go away in time. I spent most of my off-duty time alone in my dorm room and drank beer to calm my nerves.
The isolation led to depression, which only made things worse. I think the intrusive thoughts were my mind’s way of attempting to process and make sense of the incident. Those unwanted memories went away after I finally found a therapy that forced me to discover what was troubling me and then worked to resolve it.”
Plus there was the guilt that he should have arrived sooner, or he should have saved more lives than he did.
I had a friend tell me once that the worse thing we can do to our self-image is “should all over ourselves”. A good guy with a gun stopped a bad guy with a gun with a shot that few of us could make under the circumstances. We like to think it will be that easy, but sometimes, the hardest part is after the threat is stopped.